Walking the path

Too much have been said... at the end it was worth it, the feeling worth it.

We must walk Him, God must be our guide.

She said: "If there is someone I wanna walk with, that is you..."

Today I can say to my friend Bob. Yes it is...!

No more coincidences.


Song: Say yes - Elliot Smith

Good day for quitting?

As I walk in this long alley the warm air like a big embrace flows thru my naked arms. I thought that this has to be a disease it couldn't be something more, i wish it is a disease. strange sensation, strong heartbeat, lost appetite...
Today people suits me just right, the noise, their "company" make me feel or forget what i feel, even thou i couldn't help myself in blowing my mind in front of the display, I'm sure he was staring at me and laughing to tears... feeling pity for myself. I thought spoken words flowing will color the waves, all I've got is broken green plants in front of me, I'm sorry. I wish i just can pour my hear out.
Never believed this would work, this is worth as the therapy. Pls Ghm! Cant do it myself.

2:44am, I just need to take it out, need to rest.
today i wish i was a drinker to see if that heal as they say, no im not
legs broken
i wish we have an off button
its my fault for giving in so soon so desperatly
never felt this strange ache, feeling, thing in all of me
need to cool off
i was right no things like this are ment to be understood
God God God, I need you pls Lord give me the peace I need the serenity, the wisdom.... to understand or maybe just the capability to accept it.
After all I realize that I'm not the one i used to believe, i dont have a stone as a heart.
i come back to the very site i most forget, i dont want to
I feel alone, i just cant tell anybody just will hold this within me. I cant for that longm i have to say it, in this case
i have to write it I just have to take it out, no matter who may read this even her... i need it.

Mixed up

I feel Love
I feel grace, amazing Grace.
I feel embarrassed
I feel happy
I feel sad
I feel nostalgic
I feel confused
I feel butterflies
I feel proud
I feel worry
Today I can say I can feel, that is good, that means I'm alive...

Food: Tacos Dorados!
Song: Con tus Ojos - Alejandro Filio

Carrefour

A week ago I was convinced of a big decision in my life that implies big changes, new job, new home, new people, more driving :) and less quality time :( Today I find myself in a carrefour (I hope), and I just see providence... with God's help I will take the best choice. Am I scared? Yes, I wont lie, big changes scares all, i think. We maybe find ourselves in the comfort of routine. If you ask, I'm on it, and I just hate it.

If you are out there. What do you think?

Food: Entomatadas
Song: Miss Sarajevo - U2 (live from Milan version)

"Dici che il fiume
Trova la via al mare
E come il fiume
Giungerai a me
Oltre i confini
E le terre assetate
Dici che come fiume
Come fiume
L'amore giungerjavascript:void(0)
L'amore
E non so piú pregare
E nell'amore non so piú sperare
E quell'amore non so piú aspettare"

Jealous

I wonder if the word jealous can be used only in a loving way, or is it something that also feels for things you have develop. Because in the past few days I have felt like this feeling for things I have built during a considerable period of time. Is that or maybe I'm still attached to the things I already know... Maybe I'm not sure of taking the next step... Who knows..

If you are out there. What do you think?

Food: Cochinita
Song: Seek and destroy - Metallica (sorry, this day was madness!!)

Anxiety

When you expect something to happen, you just start thinking on how it will be, and what changes in you life that will cause, even the changes in the people surrounding, and suddenly you find yourself been anxious on that to happen and forgot about now, About the things you must do first in order to happen, but hopefully the outcome will worth the wait...

Food: Barbacoa
Song: Have you ever seen the rain - Creedence Clearwater Revival. (yes, pretty retro! :)

"Yesterday and days before
Sun is cold and rain is hot
I know, been that way for all my time

I want to know
Have you ever seen the rain
Coming down on a sunny day"

POD...

Yesterday I have received something that had made me happy like nothing can do in a while. It is a proof of someone's love and care for me, and after some ups and downs is more special, is like that kind of things just make you feel special, and why not... stupid.
I must say that see yourself thru some one eyes is very rare thing it make you realize who you are or what is the message you are saying maybe without trying. I think I must work in some issues but for now i just think i will enjoy hapiness.

If you are out there, What do you think?

Food. Steak in sauce.
Song: Afuera - Caifanes

I'll stand by you...

Not too much to say right now, my mind is a maze... So Here it is...

I'll Stand by you - The pretenders
"Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you"

Leisure...

There are times when the time seems to stops, and that is when your mind start flying... wondering about the time. whether the galaxy is expanding and the time is going faster, or about how a wild animal like the little red-chest bird that everyday shows in front of my office window, returns a specific place, or how a beat can blow your mind every time you hear it. It may be leisure but for me is air... is the way that I know I'm alive and my brain still works...

If you are out there. What do you think?

Food: Quesadillas!
Song: Gustavo Cerati - Sulky
Esa madera necesita un corazón... que la humedezca.

Doing the unpleasant stuff...

There are times when you must do things you don't like. But I believe this things makes you grow up and you'll find out that those things arent bad at all, maybe we dont like it because make us see confront our fears or those things we never want to confront... who knows... maybe I'm sleepy or in love and just saying nonsense!

If you are out there. what do you think?

Food: Meatballs.
Song: Sunrise - Norah Jones
"Surprise, Never something I could hide, When I see we made it through another day..."

Truth

It is true that when the truth is said things flows better, even some sort of tensions between people are gone, it is simply the best. But I think that doesnt work for everyone, some people just like to keep on the lies, even if they know they are on it, why, because that lies make them comfortable. For me that is not acceptable, but as some say... Every mind is a world.

If you are out there what do you think?


Food: Some sort of eggish dish(don't ask)
Song: Pigs On the wing - Pink Floyd

"...And I know that you care for me too So I don't feel alone..."

Turning back

Is it really no way back once you start? How difficult is to change your way? So far now, for me its been not an option. And yes indeed I sometimes wonder, what if I would do that, o what if I wouldn't do that.

I'm sure that this is the path I must walk and maybe I never stop having questions about it. But that is not wrong, right? haha I mean that is what make us humans?

Food: Peanut Chicken (Yes, peanut!)
Song: Verbo Carne - Gustavo Cerati

Unequivocal equation

This one is for yesterday.

I now realize that we all are the result of the unequivocal equation of the people surrounding us + a bit (big or small) of ourselves. And for that reason in every step we make even if it seems that is for us only, we must slightly think in everyone surrounding us because that will affect all, not saying that we must base our decision on everyone else opinion but simply to take them in consideration...

Food: Apple Salad!
Song: Pupilas Lejanas - Los Pericos

"Tiempo al tiempo, tengo que esperar, es la idea y suele condenar. Tu mirada vuelve a penetrar mis pupilas lejanas, a ver si todo acaba aquí"

Beautiful day

When the sun shines up in the sky
When there is also rain
When you feel the air both cold and hot
When you talk to the ones you love
When you know you are blessed
When you are nervous and impatient

That is when is a beautiful day....


Food: Burgerrr
Song: What Am I to You? - Norah Jones

Recognition

What are you suppose to do when someone recognizes what you do as outstanding? I just could say thank you, I believe I'm not the kind of person who thinks that deserves every recognition, I think that is important to keep your feet on the ground and continue doing it like before or even better...

If you are out there. What do you think?

Food: Quesadilla!
Song: Entre dos tierras - Heroes del Silencio.

Slow Down

Today I had one of the most intense, stressful days of my working life and I like it! I mean once you stop and see all you've been doing thru the day its amazing or maybe is the satisfaction of making something that at the very beginning of the day seemed impossible. Even thou, I have the chance to keep some ideas on my head that, I must admit, make me smile and momently escape from the madness...
Now that I'm ready to rest my body is just soo tired but mi mind wont let us rest, Have you ever feel like this?

Food: Enchiladas! :)
Song: One Headlight - The Wallflowers
"But Me & Cinderella We Put It All Together We Can Drive It Home With One Headlight"

What is this that I'm feeling...

This idea have been on my mind for years... The thing is how we (as mankind) get to the point to enclosed a feeling in a word, I mean what if for me what can be written or said as love is not even close to someone else feeling. how do we know that we feel the same like for just say a word... what if I or someone else does not know love... I think that the feelings are pretty much subjective. like the pain there are people that can hold on or has a bigger specter of pain.

If you are out there. What do you think?


Food: Fried Chicken

Song: Is this love - Bob Marley.
"I wanna love you and treat you right..."