Do we really care?

There are some things in the everyday talking that are just polite. But if you think of them are no true at all. In our native language(spanish) is pretty common to say "How are you" when you first see a person you know, and the most common answer is "fine".

On first instance, do we really care? I mean do we really care if that person is feeling well, or if is having problems at home, with his wife, or children or if he have been robbed... The real thing for me is that I dont really care, for most people I say this phrase on everyday living, please notice that I write "MOST" because there is a few people I really care about they have to say. I know that this is not right but is something you get involved in the routine of everyday and you simply lose it.

On the other hand when you answer, it is pretty uncommon, to say "bad" or "I feel awful" even when you really are in pain or have a lots of problems, why is that? maybe is that we simply dont feel confident to say the truth or dont want to share...

That old, strange sensation...

When I was a little boy, I used to imagine in my head how things will be in the future for me, and eventully I would say that I dont have to worry there is still plenty of time for all those things, suddenly elementary school was over and I say well, there is still time until I get 18 and I do have to fulfill military requirementsm then in a blink of an eye, the 18's were here, along with highschool, new things to discover and new things to reject, and one of my most hated ideas became real so I have to do it, then University started and I felt comfortable, 4 and a half years until i must finally "grow up" and again time flies and here I am realizing that all those things are real and now remembering, feeling that very same and strange sensation I felt when I was a little boy that somehow remembers me that inside Im still a child that sometimes wishes that time stops. But no, time doesnt forgive, doesnt stop, doesnt forget... My point here is that, as I heard sometime, there is no time not to be fulfilled, no date with it not to arrive any time soon...

Making waves on a swimming pool.

There are moments in life that apparently are hugh mountains to climb and sometimes they are indeed, but sometimes we simply make them hugh and that is because our fears, emotions and the environment surrounding us. If you take a moment to step out of that and see it thru, real cold, you might realize that you don't have to worry. I know sometimes is very difficult to be cold in important situations but you may ask for God's guidance thru all kind of situations and the help and quietness will be provided...

Real?

I just going to keep on the little quotes of.... myself! haha

"Sometimes, I feel this is not real, 'til the pain comes"
We are very used to find ourselves in our little world that we call reality and some times take a painful situation to realize that there is another world or another universe out there and that not everything is spinning around us. Right now I can say that I'm pretty much aware of this all the time... aparently on that age I felt that all was very easy and nice, as years goes by I see that things are different and I find myself telling me that all the time, I try not to fall into one little world again...

Song of the DAY Grow old with me - The Postal Service (John Lennon cover)

Not just one more...

There are a lot of things that I love to do, like singing, drive a car in the rain, eat hardly spicy food, walk on a hill and get to the top of it, listen carefully to the music, watch the enormous city around me... and I can keep on going... And I'm pretty certain that I can get very tired of them so I just put them a part for a while and then take them back to joyfully enjoy them. But there are a few things that I cant get tired of in this life, and one of those is reading what you write, what you have to say... maybe is the deeply artistic way you do it, or simply the message you can read, the one that is expressed directly on words and the one that is underneath, the one a few people can read... So everything is different and special and most important, is very very important for me.

So please keep them coming.

The way you make me feel - Michael Jackson.

Failure is always an option....

I will start writing about those little phrases I found...

Failure is always an option... This one, I remember that caught my mind for a while, because in a world that is supposed to be only for winners, for people who likes to compete, to do their best for getting the best job, the best car, the best looking girl, the best house...
This was me, and is me, saying to this competitiveness... You can fail, dont worry, you are a human, and if that makes me a looser so be it, I prefer to be a human than a pre fabricated man, with prefabricated goals and thoughts and prefabricated happiness I want to do mine... If somehow my path crosses with that thing they call success that's great, if not that's great too and sorry for them...

By the way I'm not very use to fail... but who knows maybe it will come some day, so better be prepared, don't you think?



PS. I learn something today... Never is too wrong to say the truth about how you feel..

Remember remember

They say that to remember is to live again. A few days ago I found a personal little notebook and on it a lot of things I wrote. And I think that my mind haven't changed a lot, maybe its just just the way to express things, or not, that have changed. It is funny to read all the things that showed my life on those days, the free time, the not done things and the things that were important at that time. Its kind of scary to realize how life can change in a few years!


Secret Smile - Semisonic.

You will be surprised...

Yep you will be surprised If I tell you the kind of things that can keep me smiling over and over again, maybe as some close person says, "you are a clown" I may add that if I am, I am a pretty acid one, I realize today, after I say it with no regrets at all, that I love to make jokes about death. Maybe it is our culture, that we can laugh at anything, even when is a shame for ourselves. Maybe I'm mad, and I'll always be... Who knows, I just love to laugh about dark things.... Am I wrong???

Bob Marley - I shot the sheriff
hahaha!

Bending Time

It is quiet common to me, I don't know if for someone else, trying to play with the time in our favor. Sometimes we want it to be like a rushing wave in the beach that disappear and we'll never see it again, not that wave. But in most cases we feel like time is being stolen from us, and as the days, weeks and years goes by, you take a look into them and you realize that this life is certainly a rush, and I ask myself, am I really happy with it? am I doing what satisfy me? What have I done?

For now I feel both sides playing on my ground, I want to go fast but also I want to slow down...

Pink Floyd - Wish you were here...

A smile for start

I wonder how people can start a week with bad mood, I mean I know not always is possible to be happy and be the kindest guy ever but, what if we all try just to change your mood for starting or maybe just put a fake smile in front of the rest, haha, I must confess I have done that in order not to create some feelings or misunderstanding, but I believe not all of us works the same... Maybe it is simply that today I wake very happy today, after all, it was a very good week end!

Grow Old - John Lennon

Fragile

We are very use to make plans, set schedules, arrange our agendas, and even promise things based on future time. But the real thing is that we do not control it and we almost never think on the fragility of our lives, and indeed, we are fragile. There are some events in life that are God's recall of something, for me is very clear, We do not belong here, today we could be talking on the phone, arranging Excel Cells, matching figures, watching football games. But tomorrow we only have the certainty of the uncertainty of life and what may happen in one day. This uncertainty is a calm one because I know HIM will have a plan for me, and if He decides it is better not around here, then is best thing... A hard thing to say but it always need to cross your mind...